Two weeks since he passed on.
My joy , My beautiful friend.
I find I am lost for words. For days I mooned around the house and garden. The tears would well up without notice. I found my throat thickening and I couldn't think.
At night the tears would wet my pillow as I remembered all his antics,the fun we had together and above his loyalty and unconditional love.
A friend sent me an article "Why we need to take pet loss seriously".It put a lot into perspective...
It made me realise how much I had lost and I had every need to grieve his passing.
This year has been so hard on my family....in the space of a year we lost two much loved four legged family members.
I need to talk about them ...because it's cathartic and they were so much a part of our everyday lives.
I am sure they will take up more than one blog page but you won't get to know them if I don't describe them to you.And I must,you will love them the way we do.
Tenali,was a great dane/ dalmation mix who we got one morning when my husband was at the barber's. He was likely the runt of the litter as he was very timid.He followed me everywhere, room to room and lay outside the bathroom, if I was in. He was scared of anything and everything and if we were not home would go into hiding till we got back. He never cried,or growled or bared his teeth at us..Docile and very loving to family and his size belied this so most visitors would keep their distance.
When he was about three months old he was as tall as the dining table,my little girl had just turned three and needed the chair to climb up. I had made muffins one morning and left them on the tablet to cool with instructions that did she need to eat one she should use the chair and remember to push it back.
I guess the t.v. was too interesting because when I got out out of the shower ,who do you think was sitting on the chair with a nice muffin between his giant paws but our one and only Tenali.
Family meant everything to him and he favoured afternoon tea parties with my young daughter since that allowed him into her room and a good snooze on her carpet.
He loved having the kids home and the football was his favourite .
Chasing garden lizards as they sunbathed on the hot cement yard was another pastime with odd unlucky one getting caught.
He was a wonderful ratter and one had to just whisper "tena,tena" for him to realise there was something exciting to do.
Last year he suddenly, unexpectedly died. He was all but ten in human years.
I was gone for the morning and he was fine. By morning he was gone. To this day I have no idea what happened .
I know we miss him a lot. He made us laugh and love and play and one really couldn't get mad at him . He had the most soulful eyes and a heart so big it enveloped us all.
It's no wonder that dogs make life so much worth living.
Friends who came home would tell us,he was lucky to have got a home with us because of his timidity and his soft heart but I don't believe them .
I know we got lucky enough to have him.
We have had the most wonderful ten years. We wouldn't trade that for anything .
Go,run among the tall grasses my beautiful Tena,chase those birds and butterflies and know you were loved so very much❤❤❤
The weather has turned and it's windy and cloudy .The summer was practically non-existent. .but no worries this me and rains and flowing rivers and a hot cup of coffee to warm you....somtimes with a dash of brandy .
If mood and tears permit I will tell you more stories but right now I can't see the words for the sorrow that fills me. If you have lost a loved pet do read that article and grieve your loss. It makes for a better world,a better person
My joy , My beautiful friend.
I find I am lost for words. For days I mooned around the house and garden. The tears would well up without notice. I found my throat thickening and I couldn't think.
At night the tears would wet my pillow as I remembered all his antics,the fun we had together and above his loyalty and unconditional love.
A friend sent me an article "Why we need to take pet loss seriously".It put a lot into perspective...
It made me realise how much I had lost and I had every need to grieve his passing.
This year has been so hard on my family....in the space of a year we lost two much loved four legged family members.
I need to talk about them ...because it's cathartic and they were so much a part of our everyday lives.
I am sure they will take up more than one blog page but you won't get to know them if I don't describe them to you.And I must,you will love them the way we do.
Tenali,was a great dane/ dalmation mix who we got one morning when my husband was at the barber's. He was likely the runt of the litter as he was very timid.He followed me everywhere, room to room and lay outside the bathroom, if I was in. He was scared of anything and everything and if we were not home would go into hiding till we got back. He never cried,or growled or bared his teeth at us..Docile and very loving to family and his size belied this so most visitors would keep their distance.
When he was about three months old he was as tall as the dining table,my little girl had just turned three and needed the chair to climb up. I had made muffins one morning and left them on the tablet to cool with instructions that did she need to eat one she should use the chair and remember to push it back.
I guess the t.v. was too interesting because when I got out out of the shower ,who do you think was sitting on the chair with a nice muffin between his giant paws but our one and only Tenali.
Family meant everything to him and he favoured afternoon tea parties with my young daughter since that allowed him into her room and a good snooze on her carpet.
He loved having the kids home and the football was his favourite .
Chasing garden lizards as they sunbathed on the hot cement yard was another pastime with odd unlucky one getting caught.
He was a wonderful ratter and one had to just whisper "tena,tena" for him to realise there was something exciting to do.
Last year he suddenly, unexpectedly died. He was all but ten in human years.
I was gone for the morning and he was fine. By morning he was gone. To this day I have no idea what happened .
I know we miss him a lot. He made us laugh and love and play and one really couldn't get mad at him . He had the most soulful eyes and a heart so big it enveloped us all.
It's no wonder that dogs make life so much worth living.
Friends who came home would tell us,he was lucky to have got a home with us because of his timidity and his soft heart but I don't believe them .
I know we got lucky enough to have him.
We have had the most wonderful ten years. We wouldn't trade that for anything .
Go,run among the tall grasses my beautiful Tena,chase those birds and butterflies and know you were loved so very much❤❤❤
The weather has turned and it's windy and cloudy .The summer was practically non-existent. .but no worries this me and rains and flowing rivers and a hot cup of coffee to warm you....somtimes with a dash of brandy .
If mood and tears permit I will tell you more stories but right now I can't see the words for the sorrow that fills me. If you have lost a loved pet do read that article and grieve your loss. It makes for a better world,a better person
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